Bless your heart...I have wanted to respond but didn't know really what to say other than we all are hanging in there and I hope and pray for you and your family that it will get better for you and for all of us that are still trying to make it work. I can say in 25 years I really have never seen it this off. I can relate on the "running people down." About 9 years ago I had to go in the hospital suddenly with emergency surgery and was out of commission for several days. When my husband called some of my clients to tell them what was going on and that I was ok, a couple of them responded that one of my competitors had called them and told them I had died. So I understand where you are coming from. There is a special place for people like that in the next life.. Also I have also found what goes around, comes around.. so keep your head up. All the best. Jean